Dear Diary: Some Minds Are Better Kept Apart

After gourmet Italian pizza, wine, and a gigantic oka pipe, it's just insane. I can't describe it. When I talk to him, it's like I'm talking to myself and its fucked up!!!

At One with Nature: Beautiful but Deadly!!!

Today was a movie!!! I know I always say that but how would you describe a fantastically (made-up word) magically beautiful day such as this??? When i suggested that we should take the red bus tour to our group of friends i could have never expected such a wonderful day!!!

Of course the road to this trip wasn't as smooth as the bus ride:

1. The crew turned from being a party of ten to being a trio, I of course was quite happy with this change of events.... (anti-social) even though they are technically my friends, I just flourish more in smaller groups of people!!!

2. Ulfah a.k.a Mushroom princess with the fringe, couldn't find my flat even though she has been there countless times before and therefor we were slightly late... boooh Ulfah and... WOW only two things didn't go according to plan!!! That's a first in my life, I think I'm having a moment... But alls well that ends with coffee... Yaaaasss!!!

Kirstenbosch National Botanical Garden

(Fairy Heaven) 

Running through the six with my woes... #Drake #WordsToLiveBy

TOP 3 MUST HAVE'S WHEN YOUR GOING ON AN ADVENTURE

Arhan: A chic hat. Especially If you are having a bad hair day!!!

Tina: A top that goes all the way up to your neck. Open top bus duh... (I forgot).

Ulfah: Red Lipstick, gotta be ready for the cuties!!! 

Hout Bay Harbor 

(Best Seafood of My LIFE!!!)

Table Mountain, I see you... Photobomb much!!!

5 seconds before I almost DIED!!!

(that moment when my life flashed In front of my eyes, captured on the video below)

And that's how i got the title for this post... Totally Fitting!!!

How could I not trip with all that negative energy (Ulfah) behind me...

(also conveniently captured on the picture below)

But then again I've always been clumsy... Nope its her!!!

Depressed but Hopeful!!!

Always know that when you give yourself to someone, they take a part of who you are.
Now go to sleep my little one because they will never have your entirety.
Only God has your entirety and He loves it unconditionally.

-Tina Tshangela

Honesty

So a friend of mine showed me one of Russel Brand's videos on YouTube and already I was dreading the terribly confusing British humour I was about to seat through...

But as soon as the video started, my jaw dropped as Russell began to share his views on religion and the world. Each point he made was followed by an intellectual fact mixed with a rare form of honesty that is founded by individualism.

Russell's honesty was based purely on the way he saw the world, yes he acknowledged worldly factors such as the media, pop culture and general stereo types but him acknowledging these factors still did not influence his honest opinions on the world.

His sense of self-acknowledgement and self-truth made me view him as this new age oracle who's mind had supassed all of the capitalist bullshit that has been programmed in our brain. I saw him as this Messiah of the truth when in fact what he has, we all have too. 

As humans we all have the ability to be honest and there is a difference between honesty and bring critical. Do not criticise and be hateful, just be honest In a way that you can only be. Show the world how you analyze things, how your mind works, what brings out which emotions in you.

Think of honesty as a skill that you keep on working on, aiming to reach your maximum ability. When you start having an unwavering honest view of the world, you start being honest with yourself and when you become honest with yourself, you give yourself the rare opportunity of knowing who you really are.

-Tina Tshangela 

It never rains but it pours... When reality hits!!!

And reality hit at the most random of times. After having another fight with my ex boyfriend.

On again, Off again. Further proving that we were not meant for each other. Reality Hit.

Reality hit so hard that it left me feeling numb and lifeless. I felt like a zombie, just a body without a soul.

Reality greedily snatched all of my emotions and left me feeling empty.

I smoked a cigarrette and it calmed me down but as I took the last drag the calm left like the disappearing smoke before me... With a deepening depression I realized that the cigarrette gave me a temporary emotion... A borrowed one.

I realized the world that we live in is built on temporary emotions. The "right now" emotions. The "what feels good is good" emotions. But they are not real.

Revelations started to unveil as I thought of the last time I felt something real. Real emotions. Emotions that don't need enhancers. Emotions that you can feel at 3am in the morning when you wake up suddenly.

Emotions that brought over-whelming emotions, that my silly, greedy and weak humanity could not handle and started running away from.

I'm exhausted from running. God I'm done fighting.

-Tina Tshangela 

FKA TWIGS - M3LL155X

MOTHERCREEP

College Dorm Life....... #FreakingOUT

Its been a while since i last posted and i am so super sorry..... life sort of happened and by life i mean a lot of life happened. i wont dwell too much on it though as one of my 2015 new year's resolutions is to not dwell on the past but instead focus on the future.... you know all that "New Year, New Me" stuff!!! oh btw Happy New Year lol

So much change has been happening to me recently but the biggest one is the fact that i finally moved out of the apartment that i was living in with my big brother and sister and now i finally live in a college dorm like a normal college student.

its my 3rd year as a fashion design student so yes some of you might think its your last year why even bother? and yes thats true but its my 3rd year which means more work, more stressing and more hecticness so living closer to my campus will be such a relief. last year i had to take 3 busses to get to and from Uni and now i'm like 10 minutes away soooo yeah life is feeling pretty awesome.

sorry i have no pictures in this post but i promise i will have some in my next one, hopefully of my dorm room AND some deeds on my unknown roommate who is giving me major anxiety because i am praying that she will be an angelic doll rather than a psycho bitch..... wish me luck, fingers crossed!!!